Fresh Lives, Fresh Thoughts, Fresh Jobs and Dreams…

So, it’s not quite Saturday for me as I haven’t slept.  I was origionally going to write the first rant and rave I had done in a while due to the computer problems but then someone sent me an inspirational video.  Though it is my belief we get what we put out, I received this message merely two sentences in and it made me smile.  The past was the past at that point.  What have I learned today?

Well, I learned that I can live my dreams starting today for one thing.  Nothing seemed to bother me today.  It usually does, but I could not keep a smile off my face for the past two days.  Why?  Because I now know something most don’t and due to that something, it makes me happier.  Yes, I can go on vacations for cheaper and live like a rich woman without having to worry about how I’m going to have to pay for it.  Just today I was looking at what I want to be my first motorcycle.  I asked the guy what the price was.  He told me, “well to be honest it’s 5600, but tell me what do you do for work?”  I explained to him, “I write, and blog, and do a lot of network marketing for Wake Up Now Empowered.”  That 5600 dollars turned into 3k in one moment.  I couldn’t believe it.  Here I am at a mom and pop shop and he’s heard of us, or believes in the cause.  It was amazing! 

That was when I realized, there are so many discounts I could be sharing with all of you.  If you too want a vacation, want a cruise, want anything at all booked I’m your go to gal.  I guess I have been forgetting to do one thing: to help others live their dreams too.  That changed for me today, and I decided I would tell everyone about the truth and how to get things less.  Also, imagine discounts massively on office supplies, paper, etc.  I can show you a way to save so much that it puts the coupon gurus to shame (sorry fellas).

So, if you want to hear about what I can help you with inbox me: katterwin@gmail.com.  I can find you a way to shave off cash you could use for vacations.  There is multiple ways to make money, and I can get you out of the rut you are in.  Thought I would throw it out to the world on my blog.  We are becoming world wide now, and are all business owners.  What do we havve that you don’t?  Nothing, but maybe more time and consistency.  See what happens, and see yourself awakened and happy living your dreams!

Warmly yours,
Hellen Reaves

Breaking the Cycle

“Breaking the Cycle”
As we find more of our personal truths
I find I was in a bubble in my youth.
Categorizing myself by the day
A set of aloof labels I must break away.
I know that soon I’ll get it right
So I can educate others to go out and fight
For they too label themselves often selling short
Our own enemies are we that self reflected hurt.
Though my journey is in baby steps I would say
Tomorrow I’ll ponder and it’ll be a new day.
No longer putting doubt in my mind
I can contribute my talents and even the new I shall find.
The night comes on as we sleep in our beds
God please break these chains of labels we spread.
Upon ourselves gathered in robes
Let our talent shine forth blessed by new dreams that unfold.

Sunday Reflection on a Monday:

So, there are many truths as I find myself filled with knowledge. I know I’m spiritual and chose a path of light. The saying is true: everyone is a reflection of one’s self. With two novels and manuscripts completed and in the mail, I realize what writing I thought was therapeutic really is but for others to learn from as well. Yes, I’ve lived a hard life. Also, I’ve learned coping skills and how to deliver the truth to others to make sure they have the tools they need. Once you get into that negative mindset, there is a three step method to follow, and it works for many I coach when they too face hard days. Though I have fight in me as I’m a survivor, I realize that my strength is contagious. Something I’ve learned to get others out of that head spot are here to help on any path you find yourself on. The mindset is the key to success to not be taken lightly or jokingly as we are truly what we reflect. My novel I just finished will teach you why these things are important on the discovery of waking up to your true purpose, how to heal yourself, and finally how to help others. To help others impact you and other people so much that positive ripples transpire out of these actions. Here’s my list, and if you want to add anything that helps you, please do so in the comments section as I’m all ears.

1) Friends and family go a long way. Friends you look up to that radiate that glow are good for you.

Note: if you don’t know which friends are good or bad for you don’t worry. Take an inventory of each of them by writing a pro and con list to make sure they are what you need in your life to manifest your personal truth. This can be broken down further by subcategories such as but not limited to: habits, how you feel when you speak with them, what they do for a living, etc. If the negative is more than the positive then you’ll know right there what type of friends they are and what you need for personal growth.

2) Watching a funny movie or a movie that inspires dreams.

Note: we all have to try and try to acheive our dreams. We may not make it our first try, but if we give up then that is when we fail. There are many stars who haven’t gotten it right their first times either. They have stories and the message is that they don’t give up even on their darkest days.

3) Write about observations you make.

Note: What is good and bad in your life and how do your emotions lead you to feel that way? Some folks keep journals for dreams, insights, quotes, and goals. These oftentimes are successful people. Ask yourself what you truly want out of life! As big or small it may seem, there is a path to get there. By focusing on this you’ll feel more focus and purpose.

4) Be realistic, if others believe in what you do then they will actually guide you to get to your path free of charge.

Note: Clearly define your cause. What are you for versus what are you against? If you can preach to the choir on some causes then that will give you signs you’re doing something right. If you get calls asking to make your blog viral, you’ll find oftentimes that they don’t have the talent. Let your ideas be sacred to you but freely share them. Contradictory? Choose your audience and make sure they’re like-minded enough to take what you say to heart.

5) Avoid people who put you down, and avoid false flattery.

Note: Reflect the other persons motives, and follow your heart and gut. You knew everything before your birth and now it’s a matter of connecting the dots to make sure they’re aligned with your life purpose.

If you don’t like your day job, or find that you’re being abused by people you’re not alone. The term, “misery likes company,” is true but remember we are all reflections of ourself. Once you learn that, and control your thoughts- DON’T GIVE UP! Above all else, stay true to you and your harmony. It’ll get your mind in the right state to make good ripples and positive strides aimed for success, rebirth, and I shall pray that you can find the truth among other things that you can find along the way!

Hellen Reaves signing off. Happy Veterans Day weekend!

A moment touching a lifetime…

I’m the type of author and reader who checks out what my blog pals are doing. After a like from a like-minded person on here I have to come out and say something. Though I’ve been choosing to fight the wrong battles due to being abused for so long, friends and family (even government), have shown me the cycle I’ve been in for almost four years. When criminal charges are faced, the abuser if they want to keep their victim in a tight grasp decides to act out abuse in other ways. I wish the court could see my progress and that I don’t want to go through a difficult choice. I’ve been influenced in this so long that the other parties family had even had me living out this vicious cycle. My story is about negatives turning into positives and I know now I need out but don’t know how to go back and to fight just yet. I need time to heal. I need strength. Here these people are trying to show me what a “love-hate,” negative relationship is, and here I am as usual with the wool over my eyes. My family only wants what is good for me. I know others pray for me and my cause, but it’s sad to say I didn’t see it until now! What I saw, and what they saw are two different things. I’m sitting here in wonder thinking, “it’s a wonder I felt so drained all of the time,” as I turned a blind eye fighting for someone who I feel surely wouldn’t do it for me. Whenever they did something for me, they’d use it over my head. I have nothing more to give though.  It’s so sad- the illusion they bring. I see their own situation broken with or without me due to their past. I need to step out but God help me I am scared of retaliation as I’ve always been. Seeing the big picture for the first time is the scariest thing ever. It is like living in a bubble and not knowing how to pop it. I then found a blog on the subject and thought to myself, “my dreams will be manifested through a divorce but God, how do I even start?”

I need your prayers, not your pity. What makes things worse is hearing things like, “I don’t know how you still stand after hearing your sad story.” Well I do stand and I do have dreams. How to manifest them I have an idea. How do I take care of me when I’ve always been looking out for others? Can the relationship between him and I be fixed, or how do you know when or how to move on?

All of these questions pop into my head and I ask God to provide me the path I need to follow that is good for me. I fall in love too easily and see now these folks have taken advantage of me. I wish someone could step into my mind and tell me the truth though I know it’s my truth to make and my journey. I guess what I’m saying is a support group to identify things may be what I need for positive change after all of these years. It may be good for me to get involved in something larger than myself. He did my taxes so I had to start digging. The IRS says I owe money yet own my home, can’t lose anymore, and feel the need to move on. GOD HELP ME.

I know my dreams, but have been spinning my mind on this. I never knew someone telling you, “it takes too long for you to study,” was bad for me and my future. I thought it was normal, but I just finished my novel and have a new one to write on this subject as I’ve dealt with one form or another since 12 years old, have major trust issues, and know I need to focus on me now. How to make that next step I pray will come soon. I also pray I’ll not be forced to make such tough choices alone. He’s incarcerated and faces another charge. I thought our love was good but then realized as I’m in treatment the codependency isn’t to substance but to everything! My therapist next Wednesday will hopefully have answers. Thanks for prayers, love, positive reflection and strength as I need this change. I’ve had the eureka moment more than once. I only hope I have it easier for once.

I have to visit him today as I keep my commitments but how to break this cycle? Hmmmm. I suppose I’ll write more later but I have more energy just knowing the truth.

Peace and love to you all, Hellen once again signing off. 

The Secret and G.O.Y.A

The Secret and GOYA I hold dear to my heart.  Yes, I have had a rough time of it all during many years.  I also know my mind is going to acheive my great dreams to go do good deads and to help others acheive their dreams.  I know by the insight I hold dear to my heart, this will happen sooner than I think.  This year is a special year for me.  I know this is the year I will become a published writer.  However, for me to succeed is to train others minds to make my dreams a reality.  If they think I won’t make it, then that is a counter production of myself that I was unaware of.   Also, I know that if I can train their brains by having them read the same books, and develop the same patterns for themselves, then we aren’t set up for failure but are succeeding. 

“You can’t teach an old dog new tricks,” is a fictitious statement.  “I’m too old,” or saying, “I’m not smart enough to do this,” can honestly tear a person down in a minute.  It can be corrected, and it can be perfected though.  You all help others by helping yourself, then teaching others your philosophical points of view.  Whether that be your passion for what you love to do, your life, your hopes… these are things you should be entitled to.  Look at it like this: it is your life, right?  Maybe you have been living your life for someone or something else.  Eventually later in the future, this will cause resentments as your life flashes by your eyes and then you realize on your deathbed that it is too late.  Due to this blog though, I’m making you realize some things and a new perspective.  I may talk about things I don’t want on here, and may preach to the choir on some issues- but I know there are a few who do need to hear this.  I have previously not thought I was good enough so I was around the wrong people who also did’t believe in me or my dreams.  By having these forces around me, I also realized that I was hurting myself in the worst way. Why?  I love myself and want good for myself, but out of habit of not feeling good enough, I was selling myself short, and going into that negativity frame of mind.  Furthermore, by saying, “it won’t happen, I won’t be able to ever make it,” you are sending out those ripples that it won’t.  When in all reality, it will with a positive mindset and a positive attitude.  There are things and opportunities that we miss, through the power of prayer more opportunities will come knocking.  When you find your niche, then you will become happy.  What doesn’t feel like work?  Maybe you hate your job, or the bullshit that goes along with it… again sending out ripples making it not possible to enjoy life to it’s fullest.

A book I just finished writing shows us that the Bible was a blueprint for us to follow.  No, I’m not saying we can compete with the “life force,” but what we can do is align ourselves and our dreams with it so that we can reach our truest potential.  That to me is true freedom of choice, manifesting dreams into reality, and living our truest purpose on this earth. 

I know I have a lot of work to do, but then I also know that I can acheive my goals as they are very clear.  I can radiate peace within my own home, though I know not so pleasent things happen in our world.  “No news is good news,” so stop watching the news, and listen to your favorite tune.  You are shutting yourself out before you even started your own journey.  Why sell yourself short of happiness, dreams, and your true potential?  Remove the negativity in your life, fight your causes, and realize what you DO want, so you can be there one day.  I’m your biggest fan if I’m preaching to the choir, but know what I say is wisdom, truth, and just.  I know as I’ve been to the bottom but won’t ever go there again.  I will shed light for others, become inspiration to say, “this is what I use to be and do, and this is the great thing I’ve become now,” and this will provide you what you’re looking for and will become your manifestation miracle.  I want you to succeed, know you are unique, and deserve great things.  It isn’t a false sense of entitlement at all but your birthright on this earth!  Take it, manifest it, grow it, and become positive.  Here is the key.  Do your research and get back to me.  This world can be beautiful, and can provide what we need.  It is the potential within, not without.  Here it is, your friend through Christ telling you that what you face today won’t be faced tomorrow!

Peace and love, Hellen J. Reaves signing off.  I’m manefesting greatness, and change for what I DO want.  Author, novelist, and speachmaker telling your hope is at the end of the tunnel, get out of that fog and into the light!

A Great Man Once Said…

A great business man once said, “the things you think are going to matter in the future don’t, and the things that you do think are going to mattter in the future do.”  Looking back in hindsite, that man was wise and knew from experience what he was saying was, and still is true.  Sometimes we get stuck in our own situations, and can’t see through it… at other times, we are so in tune with the world, that we can see through it all and can see we are very much in control. 

There are some things that cannot be defined as normal that we go through.  There are some things that we tend to ignore as beings, as truths, and as ourselves as we learn of more about who we are.  Sometimes there are things that are manifested through our consiousness… I want to move to the mountains, and usually disaster has to hit before I can go to where I’m headed.  There is no where to look but up as I near the finishing of my novel.  Now to manifest the publisher… publisher I’m channeling you and will hear back from you shortly… I can write wonderfully and am waiting for you to help me make my dreams become reality.  Rains flood away the fire, and allow peace in my life.  Also, publisher, I’m almost done and will be waiting for your call!

Cleaning up Messes:

There are many issues I face on a personal matter, on an emotional matter, and on a spiritual matter.  There are issues that go on, of others pulling the wool over my eyes.  Have you ever seen that there is no honesty in this world.  There needs to be though as I am honest, and was set up to fail.  There are so many things I have to resolve from years ago that I didn’t know about.  Hackers hit my account, there are other issues going on.  I mean, have you ever heard of my life really?  I’m writing it all on a novel of which I’m not putting on the internet, but my whole life as of late has been a sham.  A lie.  A hoax.  Here I was thinking that I would make my “big break,” and here I am worse than ever.  I’m a writer, have made trustworty friends, but have also been manipulated so much to the point where I see the big picture, but don’t know where to go from there.  What do you do when you realize taxes, criminal charges faced, etc. Were all a sham?  I’ve been bullied, and am writing for my therapy.  I was so destracted and upset, I could not see the wall before me.  I am in need of people on my side, and I see it this way: I’ve not hurt anyone, not done a thing against anyone, yet I’m suffering greatly.  Now is a time to focus on me, to network, and to go back to school.  Guess I’ll take a nap now to clear my head.  Though accupuncture works, it really does make some things worse.  I’m tired with problems and I’m sick due to stress.  I thank God for those who have helped me, and value them more than I value others… this isn’t a problem to me, but a sign to move on. 

This is Hellen Reaves signing off for now, hoping to God to have resolution in the end… as the world spins, we find ourselves in the middle.  Peace and love.

Maybe not the whole picture but a better idea… A life of wanting, needing, and guidance…

Have you asked for the universe to provide a truth for you in your life?  Have you ever wanted to know the big picture?  I suppose the type of life I’ve led in the past shows me that I must continue moving forward and not backwards.  The rhetoric on this planet is unique, as well as all apposing sides.  I ask the world how I can help the people in it, to find God and to take away even the darkness in myself.  There are many things I’m working on, though I’ve found what I want my personal truth to be and that is to write.  I can’t tell you how crazy this life is… the truth, as there are many truths.  I feel the world slowly going a little bit more crazy and oppositional, yet what I want to really have in my life is my health, happiness, and peace.  I get that through writing.  Though I can see in the eyes of most people, to be open and aware is oftentimes a scary move.  My Gmail account for example, I looked up one person to show me how to successfully make money, and ever since, I have been a victim of cyber wars!  It is hard to make a living, but all I ask for is a good life.  I think we all do, but usually don’t project it in the right fashion.  You have your working class citizens, entropenuers, sleeping masses, on fire faith people, and then a woman questioning the fabric of exhistance.  I want to change, therefore I will and will inner reflect asking what I truly want.  Maybe a pro’s and con’s sheet of observations as of lately would help the cause, or maybe  it would show more of the same? I ask myself, what truly makes me happy while on this planet, and I see all the things I don’t want first to ensure I make the right choice.  Opposite of what I want is of coarse rivalry, but yet I don’t want a blimished name or reputation either… Here it is again, the balance.  It is truly the butterfly affect.  However, choosing one’s battles is never easy until you put it out there and reflect upon it. Now, I see everyone’s point to an extent, but I pray for an awakening as all of the opposing parties seem to focus on also what they don’t want.  I know a life, a job, and an attitude can change many things.  Also, I know we are what we eat, smoke, ingest, or snort.  I don’t want to be poisoned in any of these ways though.  I choose to live a happy, peaceful, bountiful, and calming life.  After going through so much pain, I only want to focus on myself, in the mountains drinking chrystal spring water and cooking good food, and writing.  Yet, I’m a walking contradiction.  Too much solitude, and that is no good either.  Yes, I meant to say “no good,” for a reason.  It is also bad to have too much company, to know where boundaries are, and to know what the truth is to life in general.  The universe has to give eventually if I put it out there that I choose to write, to continue my therapy, and to make my life happy. 

There is war going on yet none seem to talk of it like that–and I feel for every party involved.  Is it sad that I cry and see all of the points of view?  In my immediate area I perceive some people just having their priorities different than most others.  Maybe I too can be controlled by the same but they seem not to see the immediate things I see.  They also don’t seem to see the need I have in my eyes for understanding and for peace.  Trust doesn’t come easy from a person who has been through so much, but I feel as if I were a human lie detector test just testing the world to see what combonation I need to get to where I want to go?  Then I see greed literally destroying people.  It goes and plays a huge part in their minds.  It is truly terrifying and sad.  There is a balance, and there is a time.  There has to be answers from stress, worry, shame, ugliness, and wickedness.  I must find the lack of in my immediate surroundings.  It is a potential must.  What is it that would make them all want to stop, and to live in harmony?  If the world was in harmony, or a part of the world, I would want to be in it.  That’s a good one, instead of making money what if we all just did harmony training?  That would provide the solution, or grow others board, as there has to be a balance to it all right?  However, I see chaos growing more unhinged around me, and all I truly want is to live in prosperity.  I absolutely don’t like feeling that way though.  I want happiness, to write, to dream, and to come home to a vacation-like spot to recharge the batteries. 

I have previously looked into things.  Sometimes, I make it until I fake it projecting and acting as if I were in their shoes, just to understand all sides and forces a little better. It is a hard task to do though, but I think I may be getting closer.  The dream?  To write, to be published, and to be happy.  What will make this dream happen, and how to get there I don’t know… If I change all the places and faces, that would be a great story!  I could see people wanting to make movies of my stuff and everything.  Sadly, I have to be under a pseado name to not offend anyone as I “tune in,” and to still find my personal truth in happiness.  I want to make my parents proud, to know I’m making something and am happy before they leave.  My mom always told me I could write, and I want to for a living.  What is the harm in that and where do you start?  I’ve started many books, bios, proposals, finished one but don’t know where to publish it… I only wish that I could find a team that I could rely on, yet when I ask for help they act as if I should already know the answer.  I’m looking for this special someone to make this dream a reality.  Yes, I’ve found ways to sustain myself, but it often gets misconcepted… all a haze.  There has to be solid ground somewhere for me to fit in, with happiness and lack of war.  There has to be something that I can honestly be proud of, and that is to write for me.  So, wherever you are I’m putting positive energy in my dream here… to be able to write all day long and to be able to peacefully live somewhere in the mountains in balance and harmony.  Universe, here I am asking you God to guide me.  I have to have a happy purpose on this earth and live in harmony.  I’m great at solving problems, but stress kills, so this is me sending out to you my dreams and my suggestions on happy and harmonious living.  This is the big picture and how I must fit in.  I would love an answer on this as this is my path.  Peace and love, tomorrow will be a day to find harmony!  I wish my blog had my name, but as of January I’m making a choice to be under a new name due to all the threats.  So far it’s working.  I hope my new name gets the attention it deserves, as this is precisely experimental and something I strive for.  To make a name, a life, and to be happy. 

Sunday Reflection on another Monday…

So here we are on Monday and I’ve learned a lot of truths.  I’ve also learned how to be protected and how to protect against evil forces that I’ve found myself in for a while.  Looking like something I’m not– but through prayer and love I can too overcome things and make my way through to my dreams.  I have no doubt that God put good people in my life due to the fact that I’ve been through so much.  I should be protected in a place I grew up in, and have faith that I’ve come to know the right people in a place I hold dear to my heart and am native to. 

With that said, my novel is making progress!  I’ve picked up the pieces but for the last time.  I’m tired of falling down, and want to see my dreams manifest in a good way.  What I don’t realize is that I’ve been taught by terrible example, but am forced to lead by example.  I’m trying to straighten out my life, go to therapy, and go through stuff that most don’t.  How I am dealing with it?  I’m marketing- giving it my all this time around… I’m also writing.  I write on here, on my novel, and it’s about life.  Circumstances, life, spiritual matters… they all add up and sometimes are oftentimes confusing.  There are many ways to deal with it.  Art is key, acupuncture is even better, and sometimes medication to get your head right is helpful too.  Night terrors are gone, and so are the negative influences as only we can call what happens to us in our immediate here and now.  Some things better left unsaid until I write my novel, some things better left on here for the world to see now.

What I don’t honestlyn understand is this: I get offers to go viral with my blog all the time.  These offers always ask for money.  I don’t want to pay them said money if they have faith in my writing then they’d offer me a contract.  That’s what I’m sticking to, and that’s my story… I’m going to stick to it and see what happens, but I know I’m to come across a great turning point very soon.  I just know that my life will change for the better, be blessed, and be good.   I know I’ll be surrounded by people who love me, support me, and I support them.  I know this because it’s called faith and I deserve it as I’ve been through many things that suggest it’s time to manefest good. 

With that said, I hope you too manifest good because you are all wonderful, beautiful and intelligent people who deserve great things.  Remember, you must take risks to make the change but dreams aren’t stupid they break barriers and give us hope on happiness!

Excited for a future

I’ve finally received the support I need to live in peace. I’ve even found others who’ve seen what I’ve seen. Prayers answered to connect as we keep quiet planning the next little something. Prayers of peace and insight. The awakening some call it and to others insanity. The tree of knowledge and pattern hang in a correlating, balancing zig zag spiral of truth not sold but viewed. How do strangers get a hold of me and are complete reflections of me? Manifestation. A part of a chapter is over. No longer powerless or feeling insane.

I need to reach those who’ve helped me in the background to make things happen. My goals are untouched and I know I’m attracting like now. Surrounded by darkness I can be filled with the light as I breath in and out focusing upon just existing.

Love and peace comes in all forms. Why I was lead down this path remains to be seen but I shall see what it is. I know I shall be safe and happy regardless but the test of life will change. This time it will lead to the path of success. I was just officially awakened and I’m adoring the brilliance of it all.

That eureka moment as they assemble and wait for my call. I do look forward to helping with a big picture to create happiness and harmony. A movement of truth and a taste of the good life. I feel this turning point. Changes ahead unknown but welcomed! Law school isn’t so far away when I think about it. Now that the direction is clear, manifestation will be easy!